Anyway, what I'm saying -- and what I've said here many times before -- is that I didn't have a lot of examples of women putting themselves out there, even as one of many unknown or under-read bloggers. If the feminist blog world existed then, I didn't know about it, and most political blogs were written by men, or groups of men. Examples are important. I didn't really want to be a diarist -- and I failed grandly at it -- but the only women publishing online, or so I thought, were the ones opening up a vein and bleeding.
There's nothing wrong with vulnerability, even in its most abject form, but I want the option of writing impersonally, even when I sneak myself into too many posts, and I want to see more women writing about the world around them, not only their own lives. The truth is a lot of good discussion comes from personal writing.
In her interview with Sheryl Sandberg, Tracie Egan Morrissey said,
"I began to tell Sandberg that I can relate [to her apprehension getting that first performance review], on a way smaller scale, as a blogger because everything I write has a comments section beneath it, but she cut me off: 'I just have to argue with you. It's not a way smaller scale. Don't say that! Look, I don't do public stuff every day. You're doing something that influences the dialogue every day. You write for one of the most important places where people actually have serious conversations about women. So no! It's not a smaller scale! It's the same scale!' In that moment, I had been acting out the 'impostor syndrome' that Sandberg writes about, in which 'many people, but especially women, feel fraudulent when they are praised for their accomplishments…Women tend to experience it more intensely and be more limited by it. We consistently underestimate ourselves.'"I like this quote a lot, and I'm trying to find a way to make it relate better to what I just wrote. The temptation is there to say, "oh well, I'm just a blogger. Nothing I write matters," particularly now when one-person blogs are dying off, and it's especially true for women where "women's writing" is still too-often devalued.